Do you ever feel overwhelmed by the things God has called you to? Do you feel inadequate and completely unprepared for the very things that you know He created you to fulfill? Trust me, you are not alone!
He built us to draw on His strength, His wisdom and His knowledge so He can work through us. How many times have we done things in our own strength, our own timing, our own wisdom only to find ourselves with one heck of a mess in the end? A mess we usually turn to God, crying "Help!"
I've realized how arrogant I've been. God has all the knowledge, all the resources and all wisdom. He's proven His trustworthiness. When I meditate on that, everything comes into proper perspective. I'm brought to my knees in repentance. It is wonderful to be loved so completely, to have my foolishness forgiven...again.
God is teaching me to wait on Him and His timing. Nothing like crucifying my flesh! I can practically smell it! It's seems so unnatural to wait. My soul (my mind, will and emotions) doesn't like to wait. My spirit - where the Holy Spirit resides - insists on my being in synch with God.
In my lifetime, I have learned I cannot trust my emotions. They are real to me, based on my perspective and experiences. But they can be distorted by stinkin' thinkin', the enemy's influence, old tapes that run through my head, and my desires.
I can also be as willful as a child at times. God knows I've thrown a few tantrums with Him. I've often wondered if He finds it slightly amusing or just downright sad. Pathetic anyway. He's always right, always faithful, always trustworthy.
My goal is to get to the place where my spirit consistently rules my soul. Living with my spirit in the driver's seat, I will rely on the Lord at all times and in all things. I won't question doing what He is calling me to do. I won't question His timing. I won't fear the unknown. I will trust and obey (funny, now I have an old hymn running through my head!). All my confidence will be in Him. All my desires will be His desires. All that I will say and do will be for and about Him.
He has given us the best foundation: the Holy Bible, His Word. I intend to live it not just pay it lip service. Now is the time!
1 comment:
Wow!! You go girl! I pray for satan to be kept at bay as he also reads these words! "Doncha know" he will be constantly trying to thwart your desire to be whole in Christ. I appreciate the reminder to give God complete control, openness, vulnerability and to be obedient to His every word. Very insightful thoughts. Thanks for sharing as you do! Keep writing!
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